Hi friends. Please excuse my unscheduled absence these last few weeks. I was busy tending to my family, and to myself, and given the number of challenges we faced in the February I had to step away from the blog for a while. I’ll be sharing more about what’s been going on in a future post, but for now I am back with an update on what to expect in the near future.
In the very near future, aka Thursday, there will be a new recipe. Finally.
There was a time when this unexpected blog hiatus would have really bothered me, especially in light of my relatively consistent recent posting history and fully planned editorial calendar. In the past I may have forced myself to stay up into the wee hours of the morning penning posts and editing photos. Or worse, prioritized a silly blog post over my children’s needs. I’ve definitely been guilty of that in the past.
But this time around I didn’t have the mental, physical or emotional energy to push myself like that. Nor could I imagine choosing time with my laptop over time with my family, for something that is essentially a hobby.
So, I decided to try something new and give myself some grace. For me, this was a novel concept.
If you follow me on social media you will see that I have been virtually silent there as well these last few weeks. My daughter has been all over me lately about needing to get back out there and start posting on Instagram again. Given her constant encouragement, I finally jumped back in on March 1st; but, I think that this unscheduled break was exactly what I needed to reset and refocus.
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Beautiful morning on this first day of March. …. I don’t know about you, but I was so ready to flip the calendar to a new month today. …. February was long, cold and downright hard. Between sadness, injuries and illness it often felt like a struggle just to make it through the day. I was virtually silent here and on my blog because I couldn’t find the energy, inspiration or enthusiasm to compose a meaningful post. Sometimes it’s impossible to find the words to express how you really feel. And when I go back and look at my camera roll it seems that I didn’t see much beauty in the world this last month either. …. But with the dawn of a new month I’m feeling a little more hopeful and a lot more motivated. …. I snapped this picture at 7:05 am – after I had run 3.5 miles and taught a Pilates class. It was cold, but bright and that rising sun really helped to set a positive tone for the day. …. I’m not going to lie . . . . In some ways it was nice to step away from social media for awhile, to focus on my family and be present in the moment without worrying about capturing it and making it look pretty. On the other hand, thinking about sharing posts often helps me to live more intentionally. To notice the little things, pause to appreciate random beauty, document small success and focus on the positive – all of which bring joy and value to my life. So, I’m planning to be more present here without sacrificing presence in my daily life. It’s all about chasing elusive balance. We’ll see how that goes. …. #march #newbeginnings #readyforspring #morning #sunrise #sunshine #balance #pilates #morningrun #running #runner #seenonmyrun #lovetorun #runnergitl #runningmom #takeabreak #balance #naturesbeauty #goodmorning
This past week I felt myself drawn to the keyboard. I have had so many thoughts, feeling and conflicting emotions swirling inside of me that writing is a natural outlet for me. Don’t worry, I won’t subject you all to that senseless rambling. Through my journaling process, though, I have discovered there are a number of things I want to say. During one writing session on Thursday I quickly wrote four draft posts that will be edited and tweaked for your future reading pleasure (my kiddos were home sick last week, Kyle all week, so I had a lot of time to write while he was sleeping).
I also noticed that a few weeks away from my dashboard helped to bring a little bit of clarity not only about what I want to write, but also how I can start taking the blog in a new direction.
If you’ve been reading for a while, you know I’ve been hinting at a change in focus for the past couple of months. But I couldn’t figure out exactly what the new focus should be or how to make that change a reality. I’ve tried, and failed, on multiple occasions to change the blog to more accurately reflect my true self and during that journey the blog has been all over the place.
It’s no surprise that I have struggled to define my niche, because since leaving my full time job almost five years ago I’ve also struggled to define my identity. As your class Type-A personality who has always excelled at every level of schooling and career I’ve tried, not having a purpose or a passion has been extremely difficult for me.
I’ve tried on multiple hats over the years and found that none of them, so far, have fit quite right. And although I started this blog to give me a creative outlet and a sense of purpose during these in-between years, I felt that my lack of focus permeated the blog and often made it more frustrating than fun.
But now, I am at a place where I am okay admitting that. Instead of trying to make the blog a platform for doling out advice, showcasing perfect family moments, or pretending I’ve got it all together over here I am willing to be a little more vulnerable and share the fear that comes with saying, “I don’t know what’s next . . . .”
As a mom of a tween and teens who left the workforce several years ago to raise my family I don’t have all the answers. There are days that I don’t even know who I am anymore.
And that’s okay.
While I can’t tell you yet exactly what the blog will look six months from now I am confident that it will be different and that will be a good thing because it will be even more authentically me. You can still expect new recipes [almost] every Tuesday, Free-For-All Fridays with updates, favorites, beauty tips, and a few new topics, and some more in-depth, reflective pieces on some Thursdays. We’ll just have to see how it goes.
I hope you’ll stick around for the journey.
Thanks for reading!
P.S. I am also working behind the scenes on some blog updates. I can’t wait to see how it all comes together.